rain rain, come and stay...

just thinking...there is so much to think about these days...Kaevyan...he is 6 months 3 weeks and 2 days old....when he was born he was my tiny little miracle baby... now he is my big bundle of joy... he weighs a little over 20 pounds now...still breastfed, but i am kinda slowly starting him on a little bit of solids but i know he isnt ready to give up breastfeeding and im not going to be selfish and take his "noos noos" away from him. you know what im tirred of? opinions...i didnt ask for your opinion, i askd for advice...advice no one can give cuz they dont know the situaation... im so tired....if i had to actually write down the story for you it would take a 75 chapter, 12point font in times new roman, single spaced in writing book with at least 3 sequels to do it any dent of justice...our story is one i will treasure through the good times and bad, the happy and sad, the truth and the bullshit...but mayb everyone is right...mayb it is time to write the end of this chapter close the book and never look back...maybe i should write a new story about me and my son...its all up to you...i love you, as my first love and the father of my child...that fact will never change but as for me moving on...only you can decide that... im waiting...but not for long.... hmmm it is gunna rain tomorrow and i really love the rain :(