so thats my mood, how i feel...lost. i feel like today has just been a day in which im not into it...i
get up in the morning and just go through the motions...i dont feel
like anyone understands. what i have decided today has determined the
rest of my life. i used to think i couldnt do this alone and hell im
sure ill have more days in which ive been driven to the groud, but i
cant change that. a girl once told me, tommorow will be better. i
thought to myself oh she doesnt know that...tommorw will be the same.
the same hurt and the same feelings until i found this...(Isaiah
58:8 NKJV) Then your light shall break forth like the morning, Your
healing shall spring forth speedily, And your righteousness shall go
before you; The glory of the LORD shall be your rear guard.to
me, this is the meaning on tommorrow will be better. to me it says
tonight when i go to sleep and through the night and in the morning when
i wake god will be taking my problems and my sorrow and all the hurt
and fear of my past week and he will show me the path for tommorw in
which there will be no more sadness and fear...if only id let him.
honest...i have a problem with letting go. when someone saids something mean and hurtful i feel i should retaliate and most of the time i do...except today. i want very bad to let go of everything and give it to god, and when i think ive done just that, i wake up and there are new troubles right as soon as i get out of bed and then thoughts of my old troubles come back...and it gets to the point where i cant feel god. its like im buried beneath all my problems and troubles and fears...i was on the internet reading up on a sermen id seen that looked close to the problems id been having and the message was simply this: total honesty before God is the deepest expression of faith in Him and is the only way to be authentically human in God’s world. It is the only path to spiritual wholeness, and the only way to heal the hurts of the past.
i had to read this a couple of times to get it through but i got there. i need spiritual wholeness. and to be honest...i dont know how i can get to it...but when i get there ill let you know...
i feel like im traveling at speeds of 10 2mph and everything is going by so fast, yet when i stop to think i dont know where i am. i need god right now, but ...i dont feel him. i keep thinking its something im doing wrong ... but i dont know what...
honest...i have a problem with letting go. when someone saids something mean and hurtful i feel i should retaliate and most of the time i do...except today. i want very bad to let go of everything and give it to god, and when i think ive done just that, i wake up and there are new troubles right as soon as i get out of bed and then thoughts of my old troubles come back...and it gets to the point where i cant feel god. its like im buried beneath all my problems and troubles and fears...i was on the internet reading up on a sermen id seen that looked close to the problems id been having and the message was simply this: total honesty before God is the deepest expression of faith in Him and is the only way to be authentically human in God’s world. It is the only path to spiritual wholeness, and the only way to heal the hurts of the past.
i had to read this a couple of times to get it through but i got there. i need spiritual wholeness. and to be honest...i dont know how i can get to it...but when i get there ill let you know...
i feel like im traveling at speeds of 10 2mph and everything is going by so fast, yet when i stop to think i dont know where i am. i need god right now, but ...i dont feel him. i keep thinking its something im doing wrong ... but i dont know what...
